What does your friendship mean to me? An open letter to a beloved friend who is now far away from me.

I realized that I love you a lot after you left. As soon as you left. The great feeling of regret encircled me. How dare I turned my back to you on our last night together? Perhaps you were going to enjoy it with your best friends, your lifelong friends. Even if I didn't turn my back to you, we still couldn't be together that night. I still don't know what I was thinking. I was so mad at your behavior, which is the behavior I used to like. I regret the last big hug that I couldn't give you. I regret the last goodbye I coulden't say. You mean awful a lot to me. You know what they say, you understand someones value when you loose them. I know I didn't loose you at all. We are talking every single day and I surely know that we are going to see each other again. It won't take a long time, perhaps this december, perhaps I'll have to wait until summer. People may even consider our relationship a weak-bonded one, because of the fact that we know each other a little more than a year. However, they won't know how much I love you. I know I can tell you anything, even the things that I don't like to confess to myself.  Now you are miles away, and I believe that the bond between us is stronger than ever. I just wish you didn't have to leave and sail to the unknown future that is waiting for you. It is the place where you dreamed of, the place you knew that you were somehow going to live. That moment just came faster than expected. Remember our conversation on our way to the elementary school? About how much you loved there. Now you are there, despite all of its difficulties, I know you are happy. The simile is on your face now, and in your heart too. I want you to know that even miles come between you and your friends, if they are your true friends, the bond between you will get stronger. Don't ever worry that those bonds will be broken as the time passes. I won't leave you, no one here will leave you motek sheli. As I promised, expect the biggest and warmest hug from me as soon as you come here.
With love,
Cem